A surprise Visit..

Today, I went to have some jog,walk and chat with my dearly old primary schoosome friend, Ai zhen who i 1st met during our small runion last week. We have alot to follow up too since its had already been more than 10 yrs that we lost contact..and didnt meet. Then, Ai zhen suggest that we have a short visit to Siaw Na's house..and yes..we did. I had been thinking to find her few years and even plan to visit her knowing that her condition is really not good as what all our friends used to said. She's still like what we saw her in our high school time. The moment we step in into her house, we find it very hard..too. the place is small..too much of thgs..and its not much of space to move. and Siaw Na physically become more chubb than before. The way she talked is not much different but there's somethgs tat making her look 'unnormal'..i cant explain how..but she's just not being normal. we was really surprised when she told us that she was aditted to Hospital Bukit Padang just few week ago. We just shocked and we totally thought she was joking. But nooo... she's not. She even show her medicine and there's somethings that she even said to us that i can explain all here. All that matter now is she's having some disorder..and its troubling her. She told us that she was even given 2 week MC by her school where she teach at to recover for the stress and have some rest. Even her hp cant be reach cos the school principal took huer hp away cos she was admitted into the mental hospital.its all look just unbelievable! A used-to-be smart and among the top student end up her life being in this situation. When i hear what she said and look at her condition, it remind me of myself.The different is atleast i got someone to talk, but while she struggles wit her disorder, she feel empty and alone. no one to talk to that can guide her. Mr acamna sy mo ckp ni arr??i cried at Ai zhen's car after we went back and when she send me back. We was talking abt na, and how we can help her? guide her..atleast to accept thgs already change, we cant rewind the history, we cant go back to our past, our childhood. Frm our point of view, and frm what she keep saying to us..she's seem like 'lost' in her own land. she don't know what to be? Child or mature adult?!thats what keep bothering her.she just cant accept! she told us abt the student that shre used to teach. She said nowadays student are very agreesive! She explain how everytime she entered the classroom, she feel that the class want to tort ure her, feel so daring and she feel like the kids wana 'gertak' her n keep acting that way til she feel so stress. Luckily Ai zhen was there too when i cried thkg of siaw na.i see her in me!i really hope she will b ok and again be normal like usual. :(

What's my stories? Its September..and i'm 31 years old already. Umur Makin tua and segala kekusutan masi jgk ada. Her bday just passed by..i remember back those time when we used to spend our time together during the time when we always celebrate our bday together and never complaint about how old we was as long as we having fun and we are happy. Those had been passed longtime ago.What a journey that we having now. never wonder we will separate like this. maybe its just us that feel that our friendship will not go anyway.. But sometimes, don't know why i'm still missing her.even when i remember what the last thing that happened back in PJ...7 mths ago. i was tense, i was sad, i was mentally disturbed, every night of my day filled with darkness, and evil. Its just not the friendship that we used to build 10 years ago.